Everybody has plans, everybody has goals, everybody has direction. 

And here I am.
I’m sitting in the dark without anything.

Without plans.
Without goals.
Without direction. 

My school hosts a variety of programs over the summer that involve travelling abroad. Today my Facebook and Twitter were flooded by all the excited announcements of acceptance into the programs by my peers who had applied. I had not applied, thinking that it was something I would not be interested in. 

Now, however, I sit, deeply disappointed that I did not apply. 
And it isn’t just this opportunity that I am disappointed in missing.

I have this feeling that my life is going nowhere.

A few minutes ago my suitemates were in my room talking about their 4 year plans, and all the classes they were going to take and when so that they could get their majors and minors, and then go to graduate school and get their masters, and so on. And I couldn’t help but overhear them and realize how unplanned my course is right now. I have absolutely no idea where my life is going, let alone where I want it to go. 

I feel purposeless.